A reader asked how I cope with the fear of traveling solo — especially since I’m going to India alone in less than a week! I’m not a single female traveler, nor am I widowed or divorced. On the contrary, I’m a happily married woman going on a spiritual pilgrimage into the second half of life.
“I want to go home” was all I could think for three years — the whole time I lived in Africa! “If I was at home right now, all my problems would be gone. I’d be safe and happy with my friends and family.”
Are you searching for God’s will for your life? You want to follow Jesus but you’re worried you’ll miss the mark. You’re starting to overthink every decision, step, future plan…and you feel paralyzed by indecision and anxiety.
Feeling like you’re being punished by God is normal for two reasons: 1) life is filled with difficult losses, terrible tragedies, and dry stretches of boredom and loneliness; and 2) you are human, which means you screw up. You make mistakes, hurt others, fail to live up to your own standards, and let people down.
You had faith in Jesus, but how do you love God when He lets you down? Maybe you hoped a relationship wouldn’t lead to divorce, a loved one wouldn’t die, a home wouldn’t be lost, or a dream wouldn’t be shattered forever. But you lost something you love, and you’re disappointed in God.